Not sure how to…

Not sure how today is. Started out gerat! My first class was canceled, so instead of getting up at 8 I got to sleep in till 10. Second class was let out a half hour early and last class we watched a movie. Better yet we will be watching it all week. But there is something that is wrong. I can feel it. “
Not sure if it is my health, I woke up, at 3am, with no feeling in my left leg and it wasn’t “asleep” I never got that tingling feeling. I could move it but the feeling was numb. After an hour of worrying I fell asleep and woke up and it was fine. I have been getting dizzy standing up, get into these dazes that I just am not paying attention to anything around me. It has been weird. And if you think oh she probably eats like crap, you are right. 
That is a major problem. And it always has been.
But I am a broke college student, about to graduate, paying about $500 a month in bills, excluding the $275 4 times a year for house insurance, and only making about $550 a month. I will not go on food stamps because I feel I can take care of myself. The problem is money and I work at a place where I get the food we normally throw away at the end of the day and the managers let us take whatever. So I live on that, and none of it is healthy. I can’t afford much, well anything. The $50 left over usually goes to gas. I just hope I can graduate in May, sell the house right away, pay off all loans and start being comfortable and not worrying about money. I don’t want to be rich, but I want to be able to buy a $10 dress I love that is on ridiculous sale. 
Worried for my wellbeing and my mental health at the moment. Just don’t have any motivation. 

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If you knew me you wouldn’t notice what makes me tick. It doesn’t jump out and scream “yeah thats so her”
I live for conflict, problems, and other people giving up. I thrive in tough situations with high stress. I Live for problem solving and being there when people need me. I try to act like thats not who I am because at some point I like it to be about me and not others. I don;t give up easily and walking away from problems is impossible for me. I like fixing them and then I can walk away so during a fight me walking away to cool off is not easy. At all. I think it is my biggest strength and weakness. Especially when it is something I am passionate about and something I believe in.
Living life shining in problems
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I Will

One day
I will be recognized for all I do
I will have a family
I will feel good about myself
I will be healthier
I will sell my house
I will land a job I love
I will graduate college
I will have my own dog
I will be married
I will not have any debt
I will not have to worry about money
I will be happy
I will survive all that life throws at me
I will believe that the future is bright
I will live to see grandchildren and great grandchildren
I will not let the negatives bring me down
I will be who I want

And when this is all achieved

I will have the perfect life

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TAKE A HINT

Girls, if a female friend is texting you we need to hang out soon, what are you doing tonight, I wanna see what you did with the place since I was last there etc at weird hours and is totally random with the convo it means they need to see you because they hate texting you their problems. Most girls like face to face to have that person to cry to and then they know they have the full attention that they need not like you are something that is interrupting what you are currently doing like most texts are. So next time someone says hey what are you up to on a Tuesday night before finals at midnight see if they need you. Because 9chances /10 they do!!! So offer your shoulder they will be there when you have that problem.

Now what do I do after 6 people don’t get it… Ugh fml

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Drink or DKRNI

I understand why people drink. Loosen up, celebrate, have fun. But I think it is over rated. One here and there is fine. Trying to drink more than your friends is not good. Being taken care of, throwing up, not being able to walk and putting your life in danger is not worth it. Making yourself seem stupid because you post on facebook, butt dial people, mess up texts, send e-mails to the wrong people and never know who will see them or who you dialed or what your phone autocorrected in that text you sent to your teacher, who has the same name as your brother. But people still do it, and usually don’t think of anyone but themselves. They can hop in a car and drive when they can’t even stay awake or standing, might wander into a busy street or pass out on a sidewalk. Ugh

Frustrated at dumb people for putting more than their own life in danger

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First Kiss

When I was kissed for the first time by my current boyfriend, after our first big break up (thats another story), I did not want to be kissed by him. We agreed to talk and after talking in person a lot after not being civil for a long time. When he started to kiss me, my mind went okay you can either 1) pull away and stop all of this now or 2) enjoy it and see what happens. I thought how much I disliked him still and how much I wanted to walk away but my heart would not let me. I sat there and let him kiss me and it turned into me kissing him back. I remember all of the emotions that went through my head and how much I was enjoying the kiss, even though I never wanted to talk to him again after that day my heart would not let him go. I never stopped loving him. After 2 years of not knowing what was going on and hating him so much, I still loved him. I never let that go. Even in other relationships and with other people, I still looked at if he was online and would be tempted to try and talk to him. That kiss, his first move, made me remember why I never wanted him to leave, I wanted to be his, I wanted him to love me like I still loved him. That kiss was bringing back my love for him and made it impossible to pull away. He made me fall in love with him all over again. If he never kissed me that day we would not have the amazing life we do today. I love him with all of my heart.

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The Floor

When I was little we didn’t have blow up mattresses and used to camp out in sleeping bags in a tent in our living room. Someone today said why would we sleep on the floor? I thought back to when I used to beg my parents to let us sleep on the floor for fun. Those were the days. Nothing is wrong with the floor haha

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Welcome

You will learn as you read this that I have very strong opinions on some things, but others i just follow what i feel is right but i’m a very good debater. I can debate against my beliefs and still (sometimes) win. You will slowly learn my philosophy and understandings of life and i made this as a place to voice my opinion. Love me or hate me. I don’t care, just never lie to me what you think of me. (1) I love feedback negative or positive. Enjoy!